Blur Dream

what do I want?
what is my dream?
I don't know exactly... I don't know how to answer it?
I don't want to be followers
what I want, I want to stand in my own feet and doing what I want to be without following others
unfortunately I am wondering what I want to be
sh*t! how come I could be what I want to be since I don't know what am I going to be
will I be an English teacher at school?
will I be an English private teacher?
will I work at tourism object?
will I build my own English courses or working for someone?
I am confused
I need challenges
But I don't know what kind of challenges that could make me realized what I supposed to do and what I wanna be
I am just searching for Merry Rianna's information
Thus, hopefully I will be inspired
But still, I'm confused